The Flower My Friends and Me in a Garden with Jesus

This year as I was preparing to sell the House I planted a One Hundred Dollars worth of Pansies! I had never had luck with Pansies but I want that beautiful color in the front of the  a mixture of different colors Purple and Yellow and Red. Usually as I put flowers in the yard I pick one color for high impact. This year I decided to take a risk and plant the Pansies. I had planted them in my Mothers garden one and the next morning got up sore from the nights work and found the flowers had all been eaten by a rabbit or dear I was never quite sure! I decided then I did not know enough about planting soil. So I decided to upgrade the soil with good top soil and then I decided I needed plant food and and then I thought How do I keep these Pansies drought resistant so I added six inches of mulch and replace it once a year for the heat can be brutal in Houston.  In the year of 2012 and 2013 I decided to try my luck again with something I had failed at miserably to the point I thought I should just let the real gardeners garden and I should just pay them for it. Then my Husband came into the picture first of all paying for flowers has always been argument in our relationship. He just could not understand why I would pay for flowers already grown when I could start them myself from a seed. I agree but I had enough problem getting the ones to grow that had the best environment conditions for growing. I spent time in preparation but I wanted a strong healthy plant to start with I wanted it to have the best advantage to make and I believed the curse of my black thumb would kill them. So this year as we planted the flowers I tried something different I refused to let my Husband call my flowers dead already! No I spent the money I wanted them to grow! I was invested in the flowers and argument we had because I bought flowers these flowers were going to have the best opportunity to grown! They had just finished construction and on the house and we were ready to start preping the house for sell but it wall already late September and early October and I needed the house to look good. So I planted sore back and sore knees and then I did something I had not done before I prayed that God would help me with these flowers and that he knew how they should grow better than I did ask him to bless the home I was sell to others ! It was important that after the fire that this house be blessed with love for the New Owners I wanted to bless the grown and the house and speak how beautiful it all was and it was!  So I planted the flowers and everytime I watered them I prayed Lord bless these flowers and Father your will be done if they should live or die let your will be done I will water and love on them but Father you are such a good designer No one had ever made things as beautiful as you do! So I Blessed them and said a little prayer! Knowing all power comes from Heaven the power for me to walk to the garden and water the flowers to wave and have conversation with neighbor next door and see the beautiful little butterfly that landed along with a spider or fire ant in the garden or thorn.  All of this God but together. All I had todo was speak blessing and give them food water and make sure they were in the position to get the best light. Nothing more was required of me the grew all alone I had nothing to do with it ! They each had their own color and their own height and yet they were all similar none looked like the other one! In one of the first Beth Moore Bible studies I took one of my favorite for it was where Jesus helped me do my Homework I would try to explain to the class that jesus did my homework for me by showing me How to listen to an Audio Bible on my way to class the homework I needed for the day was being told to my on my car stereo ! It was the one that would be on the lesson that day! Yes I bought the Bible on Audio so I could hear and read the whole Bible while I drove up and down the streets of Katy! I am totally positive that Jesus knew this is how I learn best! For with me someone put the Bible into spoken word was more powerful than my reading it I was feeling the way God felt sometimes as I listened. I would find myself weeping as I listened to the Bible! One day a sweet girl named Kelly brought a flowerpot and dirt and water and planted little seed and spoke of good soil and how God provided what the flower needed. I understood that I was the flower that God was working on I knew he provided Sun and Rain and Shade but somehow the part of blessing was not in the lesson for me! I had to grow and learn my blessings and see Gods handiwork in my life. It was all there everyday but I was recognizing I just had to receive his blessing. Know he gave it to me ! Then as a knew Christian I tried to think I could make my friends be like me and see the blessing of God doing my homework! I know some of them thought I was lazy and did not do my homework ! Sometimes I felt the questions they were asking in the workbook had no value and were frivolous!  Like compare verse eleven with verse ten and how does this make you feel! I would often think? They were not the same verse and does this Man have what it takes to be a leader in the Church .  I was thinking only God knows! I have seen his help me when no man on earth did ! Something I believe only Jesus has the Power to do. The point is I tried to play God with my friends life ! When I kept putting my experiences in life into theirs. Each one of my Friends were just like the Flowers they grew differently and I was to care for their hurt and hold their hand and pray with them and listen to them and discuss what I was learning but God was the ultimate Gardener he knew all about them! He knew every drop of blood that flowed inside of them and I could only see the outside. Now as I look at my friends I know longer think I have to fix them but that what beautiful pansies they are and how Great God is at gardening and making beautiful flowers and how I just have to bless and love my friends and family and let God be in charge and lead them from point to point in their life! For after all he did my Homework and makes the flowers grow and I just have to follow his directions on timing and placement and where he say Go today! Maybe it jut to smile at a lady in the Grocery store or listen to stranger story who needs to talk to a stranger and tell whats hurting !  Maybe it telling that child they are beautiful even when they have a muddy face! Maybe it is just telling your Husband the Lord Blessed me when he gave me you! Then maybe it is just knowing I am blessed no matter what happens today!