Just a little Bunco

Funny how playing a game! Can initiate so many forms of conversation! I was late for Bunco. I did  not know even  where it was being played today? I thought it is Jan's house because everything is happening at Jan's house this month in Welcome Wagon! Such a giving person she is ? She enjoys being part of the group and she loves having people around her. It is so nice to know such good hearted women.  There is about twelve women who come to socialize and play a game!  I am sure the game is just a reason to spend time together with others who need a date and time to be somewhere! They give generously to others and they care and most of them go to a Bible study or a part of group of people who genuinely care about others.  The conversations range from politics and taxes to scholarships to healing and what God has done or natural diet and Some have faced their own demons in different ways! We have lost a few and gained a few but somehow Bunco and the relationship with these Women show me I am normal and worry about the same things other people worry about. There are moments even when I doubt but Jesus showed us that there was doubting Thomas's even in his disciples.  As I listen to the other women I see little ways Jesus is working in their lives. One lady had Ovarian Cancer and had been given great news to hear the news was not that great! She was talking and saying that no matter what happens I think the Lord is using me in my illness to be a light to show others even when your not winning the battle with disease you can be a winner by the way you face the disease! We never know or understand all the reasons God allows things to happen but I am convinced that everything that happened to me in my life God had a purpose for it!  I know that I am in a more peaceful place now in my life and even in disaster I know there is hope for the future and there will be good  times and bad and God may not end every story the way I pray for it to end but I know it is his will that counts. I know that we will all die someday and I know that when God chooses for that day to happen for me that I want him to receive the glory for my life! That the way you walk with him is what really matters and not what you have or the way you look but the fact that you Love and are loved by others that matters for sometimes I believe the true fruit of this world is Love for our fellow man nothing  that is hard to have nothing I have to strive for but pure love for mankind. Gods definition of love not society definition of love. What I mean by that is when society loves they build temples and monuments and bigger houses and faster cars and better bodies. They do not trust that people will love and admire them without them!  One of my greatest examples is Mother Theresa no matter what religion you are you admired her love for her fellow man.  I know that I know that God loves me enough to give his son and I know that man will continue to sin or make bad choices but I will always know they could have made a good choice and I will continue to know that I make choices everyday and some will be good choices and some will be bad for I am not perfect at anything. I know sometimes we get so bogged down and blame everyone else for the mistakes we make when it was only a choice and God know you can come to anytime and anyplace in your life and change your choices even if you feel like you have made a bad choice hopefully tomorrow you will make better choices but you must first choose to make that choice! Trust to be lead by the word of God and know that God has a reason for everything and they may not all bless you this day but tomorrow your blessing may come! There have been many times I wonder why my children don't love and admire or respect me and whether they really do or not I do not know! My hope is tomorrow they will know I have always loved I may have made a bad choice one day but my Love for them has never left my heart, I may not even know what bad decision I made in their eyes I often think I should have done this or that with them but I could not know no matter I did how they would receive my love for them One thing I know is God knows how I love them and I pray they will know how much I love them one day if they ever read this.